A reason (standing on the cliff).

Depression is my lifestyle.

Especially when I realized that I am simply born with it.This made me feel really good.So good that I lost any hope of being 'fixed'.But this is not something I care about anymore.
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I also realised that I hate insecurity.I hate being insecure in myself,the people around me,the world,the future,the life in general. I hate not knowing that I am in control of the situation,of my life.But it happens.Sometimes you are meant not to control everything.You are meant to be prepared for everything.You are meant to find a point where there are no reasons.You need to keep on.
Sometimes I should learn.Learn how to be a better person and how to take care of myself.
Of course all these written things have nothing to do with knowing what life is.Noone knows what life is.But what I can try is to find what MY life is. And,yes, control it.

...cause I simple love controlling...it.